Friday, 3 April 2015

Dear Diary

Dear Diary,

I haven't written in a long time, but I thought I'd start again. A lot has changed since then. I am in Grade 12 now, it's coming to an end though. There are two more months of school left and I can't even begin to tell you how excited I am. Why am I so excited you ask? Well it's because I won't have to see anyone from high school ever again, which is amazing. I am so sick of everyone here, they're all so judgmental, immature and fake. Graduation is next month! It's going to be a perfect night. I have two dresses and I can't choose between them. They're both so beautiful, so it's like a tennis match goin' on in my head. I'm going to grad with my best friend because we basically do everything together and we are honestly gonna have the best time ever. It's a banquet and dance. I'm not as excited for the dance as I am for the dinner. Do I sound like a fat pig? Nope, there's nothin' wrong with loving food - is there? Since we're all paying $86 for it, the food better be good. Most of the people are going to be coming to grad in limos. It's $100 per person, so I don't know how they're doing it , plus after grad. They're gonna be spending a lot of money in one night. As for me, I honestly don't care about that stuff. I just wanna go there eat, dance, and have fun. That's the whole point of it.

 I have no idea how I'm going to make it through these two months. I've begun to slack off and I am extremely lazy. Going to school annoys the life out of me and add on the stupid quizzes, tests and projects. All I want to do is party, go out all the time, have fun, and still make it in to university. So I guess let's see how things workout.

Bye for now. xoxo

Sunday, 8 September 2013

"New Start?"

Summer vacations are gone and I'm back. Back to the same old place, back to the same old house, back to the same old school and back to the same old routine. It is a new start to make new friends, good first impression on teachers and working hard.

So you remember, trying hard to look good? Well it's getting a whole lot easier. Everything is good or so I tell myself. I have a class with that one person that- well, that is an ass and used to be a good friend. That- I wish I never had to see again because I get nightmares every time I look at. That- I wish I never had met. My best friend moved away recently because of family problems. I texted her a billion times wanting to know if she is okay. But, she never replies. Not just to me, but all of her other friends. It's quite amazing how quick people change and how quick that best friend you did everything with; just leaves you hanging.

There is so much I wish I could just say to peoples faces, but, of course that would start drama and the rest of Grade 11 would turn into a ball of hell. There is just so much I want to tell those two good friends who left without any explanation.

But of course it is a "New Start". Is it really?

Saturday, 8 June 2013

Being a Cowgirl

Yesterday was Friday, June 7th. I can't believe that I'm saying this - but for once, school was the once place I didn't want to leave. We had a Stampede breakfast. We had to pay $5, that included pancakes, bacon and juice boxes. Pancakes were delicious, I can't eat bacon... It's a long story.

I have developed this crazy interest in horses and being a country girl. So, I gave the organizers an idea to start line dancing to make the last days of school memorable. Which they did, I wish I could have joined- but, line dancing is not my thing. I'm more of a hip-hop type. It was a lot of fun though!

Everyone seemed so happy and I was smiling like an idiot. 
In Social, which was the last period- my friends and I really bonded. We talked about last year which was a mix of drama, friendships, action and the things that all the teens love to experience. Then we talked about this year, out first year of High School. Tbh: all my friends thought that it sucked- and that's mainly because my school sucks. Education is great, but there's not a lot of activities like high school dances and stuff. Other high schools have dances and cheer leading. So, you understand. My school doesn't even have any drama at all. Drama is fun, not in my life, but others. 

Saturday, 25 May 2013

Made it Through the Day!

It was raining all day yesterday- and since it was kind of chilly, I decided to wear a white Aeropostale shirt. I have never really worn it much, but yesterday I thought - Why not give  it a try? When I got to school I noticed that it was way too tight on me and I looked horrible. Luckily I had an extra T-shirt in my gym locker. It's black with a few studs on it. That shirt is not the best one in the world either, but I managed to rock it with my red scarf. Phew! I made  it through that.

Then, for P.E. we were playing volleyball. To start off the class we did some practice, except I didn't have a partner. You see- I'm in a class with popular snobby kids and a few loser kids. I'm not all that judgmental or anything, but I have certain standards. I'm in a group with a couple weirdos and I don't have a choice but to stay with them. They are 6 people in a group and luckily I can pick a partner from them. But when one of them is not at school, I'm usually all by myself or I team up with the popular kids. Mostly I hang out with my buddy Michael. He is alright...He can be kind of annoying when he tries to correct someone. Do you know what's funny about that? He sucks himself! But what can you really say?

Well, after the practice was done with - we got into playing volleyball games. Again,  I didn't have a team because Michael went ahead with the snobby kids...and there was no way I was joining that team, so I left. Others were losers, but I ended up joining my friend Anna's team. Tbh even though they are all nerds and if you saw them, you would think they sucked at sports. But, guess what? We beat every team! Yes, even the snobby popular kids and the ones that are good at sports.

"I Made it Through the Day!"

Thursday, 23 May 2013

"Why I Even Try?"

Every morning when I open my eyes, just one thought sticks to my head. "How can I look good today?" With this thought comes the pain of choosing the perfect outfit for the day. However that's not a big deal, since I always find something to wear eventually. My closet is full of clothes, but not even one thing that I actually like to wear. Will share the story sometime else.
 I wake up at 7 a.m. and try super hard to cover up my flaws and make my hair so that there is no way it gets messed by the end of the day. My hair is the most annoying thing ever! It doesn't stay whether I curl or straight and spray it. Even after spraying it, you would think it stayed...Well your wrong! By lunch I'm a total mess again, like I didn't even bother putting effort. It's honestly starting to get on my nerves and I am starting to wonder,"Why I even try?"
All of this just messes so much with my confidence and High School life. Everyday I walk in my school the competition begins. It's like, if you are not perfect in everything you do, you are not human and you are certainly not welcome here!

All I can hope is for my days to get better. Everything else will work out.